It’s almost here.

28 Mar

I cannot believe that this up and down journey with planning my wedding is almost over. We’re in the home stretch and I cannot believe that it has been about a year since I started planning this day in my head.

I have to say that, overall, this experience has been a lot of fun. I am super organized (don’t judge me by the state my house is in… I have two kids) and getting to have all these checklists and mark things as done and have to decide on so many details has been a blast. I honestly think I could do this for a living (minus the whole having-to-deal-with-bridezillas thing). It’s a shame that you only get to do this once… unless you’re Kim Kardashain.

 

I cannot begin to express just how excited I am. I hope I remember to sit back and soak it all in; everyone keeps telling me how fast the day will go by.

I’m gonna be married soon y’all. I can’t believe it!!  =oÞ

Happiness.

20 Mar

In this big world of ours, there are so many ways to define happiness. The rich man will define happiness as having a diversified portfolio and finally finishing the big remodel on his house in the Hamptons. The father or mother in India may define happiness as having a big, healthy family and enough love to last them a lifetime. Our definitions of happiness even change over the course of our lives. I remember a time where happiness was when I finally got to start wearing heels to tap class.

I am happy. I can say that truthfully and without pause. I have many reasons to be happy. I have the love of a man that loves me in a way that I never thought I would get to be loved. I have two beautiful children that are smart, healthy, and funny. I have the most amazingly unique family that is always good for a laugh or comfort when I need it. I have the smartest, funniest, most amazing friends (online and off) that anyone could ask for and the bestest most bestest best friend in the history of friends.

So what makes me happy right now?

On top of everything I’ve already mentioned, I get to stand up in front of the people I love the most in this world and *officially* make a lifelong commitment to a man I am already tied to forever. We get to stand in front of our family friends and make the easiest promise in the world; to love each other like we already do and to continue to do it for as long as weboth shall live. Sure we’ve had our ups and downs and our own problems to combat. But we’ve gone through it together. Never once, in five and a half years, have I ever felt like my man… my fiance… my husband would not be there for me. To promise to love him for the rest of my life will be one of the easiest things I ever do in my life.

Sure, there are those that say that marriage isn’t easy… that you “have to work at it”. And I get that. I get that times can be hard and make you stress and lash out at the person closest to you. We’ve already been through some of that and made it out holding hands.

Right now, in this moment, I am happy that I have a companion on the long road of life that lies before me. And I have him forever.

Checklists make me happy

7 Mar

As we all know, I have been planning my wedding and to say it has been a roller coaster ride would be a gross understatement. It all started a year ago when my mom and my hubby-to-be told me to start planning. I was really in the dumps about us not being married yet and they were telling me to start planning to help me get out of the yucky place I was in. So, I started planning and started the roller coaster ride that I’ve been on for the past year or so.

The downs sucked: not knowing if the money was going to be there, not being able to afford my *dream* dress, not knowing if the money was going to be there, having to push the date back. But the highs have been amazing: finally paying the venue in full; finding a dress that, while it isn’t my *dream* dress, is amazing and makes me look that way too; and the check marks on my checklists…. oooooh how they make me happy.

I have been terrified during this whole planning process, and to be honest, I still am terrified that the big day will come and I will have forgotten something important. I scoured the internet looking for a comprehensive checklist that I could trust. I’m pretty sure I found it… Actually, I HOPE I found it because I have been looking that list over like it’s the second coming of Jesus.

I think the last big thing to do is for us to go and apply for our marriage license next Friday. Oh, and hair and make-up. Beyond those three things, it’s all details. By this weekend I will know for sure about hair and make-up and, after that, I am coasting along until March 31st when it all comes together.

Some parts of this whole planning thing have been tough, but for the most part, it’s been fun and I cannot wait to see it all come together.

I has the sads today.

8 Jan

I had to put my dog down today. I know not everyone is an animal person but, I am and I am very sad.

We got George from the pound a little over two years ago and he has been the best dog for our family. He loved our kids and let them crawl all over him and he was my chocolate shadow for the last two years.

And then he got bloat. I don’t know a whole lot about it, just that it would have taken over $1500 to fix it, which we don’t have. On top of that, the surgery that would have fixed it couldn’t have done anything to prevent it from happening again.

His stomach was swollen to over 6 times its normal size and he was in a lot of pain so, we had to make the tough decision.

Daniel made a good point, we took him from a place that was going to do that to him anyway and we gave him over two years of love and happiness.

I am so sorry George… If I had that money I would have willingly given it up to still have you around.

I love you Georgey and I already miss you so much.

My chocolate heart, I will miss him so much.

So, where was I?

29 Dec

Holy shit. I don’t even want to think about how long it’s been since I’ve posted here. Was it Thanksgiving? Jesus… I’ve gotta come visit more often. *taps mic*

So, still working for the mortgage company via the staffing agency. It’s going great. They want to extend my contract one more month then, who knows. I’ve kinda gotten “the itch”. You ever put your two weeks notice in and then that last two weeks is the worst two weeks at the job? It’s kind of like that. I don’t know if they’re going to hire me on permanently or just go one more month and then be done with me and, although I know I need to put forth my best effort 100% of the time (like I always do), I’m almost thinking that if they can’t see what a great employee I am by now it seems like being a full on employee would kinda suck. I don’t know… I’m not going to over analyze it. I’m just going to roll with the punches.

Maybe that’ll be my New Year’s Resolution… roll with the punches. Be more adaptable, more flexible. Oh, that and post more. Definitely post more.

My prior “wedding woes” have been taken care of. We got the money issues straightened out for the time being. And, within the next week or so, everything will be paid for and all we’ll have to do is wait for March!! I got the absolute best shoes EVAR!!! SEE!!! I cannot wait until my wedding day. It is going to be so fun to have so many of the people I love the most under one roof just eating, drinking, and celebrating me and my man!

The kids are doing good. Taylor is loving her holiday break and Daniel Jr. has started pronouncing the “K” and hard “G” sounds… SQUEE!!

Life is good. Here’s to making it better in 2012!

28 days later…

29 Nov

So, you remember when I said that things were about to get crazy? Apparently I wasn’t joking! I can’t believe this is my first post for the month of November!!

Where have I been?

Oh yeah, working!! That’s right!

So, I started a temporary position with a company that specializes in reverse mortgages. To start the position is only two months long but, I hope that they’re going to hire me on permanently because this seems like a great company that really cares about their people. It’s been a big adjustment from being a stay at home mom but I think I’m finally getting the hang of it.

The commute and taking care of my beautiful kids hasn’t left much time for anything else. As of Halloween, I wanted to take part in NaNoWriMo but, as it stands now I’ll be lucky to make it to the 10,000 word mark for the month. Which, I guess, isn’t so bad considering I don’t even consider myself a “writer” and it was my first go at it. I guess whatever I do end up getting down will just be the base of something I can pick at and work on and maybe I’ll end up with a story that’s worth reading, maybe not but, I’ll have done it and that’s all that matters.

In GREAT news, we finally completed the deposit on the venue for our wedding!!! I cannot begin to tell you how tough a time we have had with the financial aspect of this wedding. Also, I found everything to make our invitations myself (well, with the help of a wonderful friend of mine) and I’m going to be able to make everything (invites, rsvp cards, thank you notes, programs) for under $100! Considering some websites wanted well over $250 for the invites alone, I’d say we’re doing pretty good on this one.

Oh… and this Friday is my birthday!! Dinner with my best friend and wonderful fiance and kids and family is going to be so much fun. Not to mention I’m going to JoAnn’s etc to check out fabric for my sash for the wedding.

So, things are still pretty hectic around here but it’s getting to be the norm now and I’m enjoying getting things done.

Oh, ps… I think our son and my fiance may have started a tradition for the Saturday after Thanksgiving. The two of them (the men of the family) put up Christmas lights around the outside of the house while us women (our daughter and I) went to visit with some friends.

So yeah, life is good! 🙂

Things are about to get crazy.

31 Oct

Since having children, I have basically been at home taking care of them. Last year, I went back to school; I’ve been taking courses online through Argosy University to earn a Masters of Health Service Management. I’ve gone back to work here and there but always had to leave; one time my son got sick and I needed to be back at home, another time the distance I was travelling made the amount of money I was making not worth the drive or spending time away from my family.

Two weeks ago, Daniel and I decided it was time for me to go back to work, again. I started posting my resume hard core (again) and got in touch with a couple of staffing agencies. Last week was kind of crazy; schoolwork + 2 kids + driving all over creation for various interviews makes for a hectic week. But, I got (and accepted) a job offer at a mortgage company in Atlanta and will be starting there tomorrow. Not to mention that I’m going to be participating in NaNoWriMo this year. The basic goal of NaNoWriMo is to write 50,000 words of original content in a month. No editing, no second-guessing, just writewritewrite. While I don’t consider myself a writer, I would venture to say that I am creative and I have had this idea swimming around in my head and I figured that NaNoWriMo would be the best way to get all the ideas out.

I’m forcing myself to not tell the story (verbally) to anyone. If I want people to know how the story turns out, I have to get it down on paper. 50,000 words in 30 days works out to 1,667 words a day. I’ve had a tough time doing some assignments for school that had a 2,000 word count but, I think that may have been because it just wasn’t something that interested me like this is.

So yeah, it’s about to get crazy around here… work, school, 2 kids and I’m participating in NaNoWriMo AND I need to post more here.

Welp, that’s it for now.. wish me luck!!