Archive | March, 2012

It’s almost here.

28 Mar

I cannot believe that this up and down journey with planning my wedding is almost over. We’re in the home stretch and I cannot believe that it has been about a year since I started planning this day in my head.

I have to say that, overall, this experience has been a lot of fun. I am super organized (don’t judge me by the state my house is in… I have two kids) and getting to have all these checklists and mark things as done and have to decide on so many details has been a blast. I honestly think I could do this for a living (minus the whole having-to-deal-with-bridezillas thing). It’s a shame that you only get to do this once… unless you’re Kim Kardashain.

 

I cannot begin to express just how excited I am. I hope I remember to sit back and soak it all in; everyone keeps telling me how fast the day will go by.

I’m gonna be married soon y’all. I can’t believe it!!  =oÞ

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Happiness.

20 Mar

In this big world of ours, there are so many ways to define happiness. The rich man will define happiness as having a diversified portfolio and finally finishing the big remodel on his house in the Hamptons. The father or mother in India may define happiness as having a big, healthy family and enough love to last them a lifetime. Our definitions of happiness even change over the course of our lives. I remember a time where happiness was when I finally got to start wearing heels to tap class.

I am happy. I can say that truthfully and without pause. I have many reasons to be happy. I have the love of a man that loves me in a way that I never thought I would get to be loved. I have two beautiful children that are smart, healthy, and funny. I have the most amazingly unique family that is always good for a laugh or comfort when I need it. I have the smartest, funniest, most amazing friends (online and off) that anyone could ask for and the bestest most bestest best friend in the history of friends.

So what makes me happy right now?

On top of everything I’ve already mentioned, I get to stand up in front of the people I love the most in this world and *officially* make a lifelong commitment to a man I am already tied to forever. We get to stand in front of our family friends and make the easiest promise in the world; to love each other like we already do and to continue to do it for as long as weboth shall live. Sure we’ve had our ups and downs and our own problems to combat. But we’ve gone through it together. Never once, in five and a half years, have I ever felt like my man… my fiance… my husband would not be there for me. To promise to love him for the rest of my life will be one of the easiest things I ever do in my life.

Sure, there are those that say that marriage isn’t easy… that you “have to work at it”. And I get that. I get that times can be hard and make you stress and lash out at the person closest to you. We’ve already been through some of that and made it out holding hands.

Right now, in this moment, I am happy that I have a companion on the long road of life that lies before me. And I have him forever.

Checklists make me happy

7 Mar

As we all know, I have been planning my wedding and to say it has been a roller coaster ride would be a gross understatement. It all started a year ago when my mom and my hubby-to-be told me to start planning. I was really in the dumps about us not being married yet and they were telling me to start planning to help me get out of the yucky place I was in. So, I started planning and started the roller coaster ride that I’ve been on for the past year or so.

The downs sucked: not knowing if the money was going to be there, not being able to afford my *dream* dress, not knowing if the money was going to be there, having to push the date back. But the highs have been amazing: finally paying the venue in full; finding a dress that, while it isn’t my *dream* dress, is amazing and makes me look that way too; and the check marks on my checklists…. oooooh how they make me happy.

I have been terrified during this whole planning process, and to be honest, I still am terrified that the big day will come and I will have forgotten something important. I scoured the internet looking for a comprehensive checklist that I could trust. I’m pretty sure I found it… Actually, I HOPE I found it because I have been looking that list over like it’s the second coming of Jesus.

I think the last big thing to do is for us to go and apply for our marriage license next Friday. Oh, and hair and make-up. Beyond those three things, it’s all details. By this weekend I will know for sure about hair and make-up and, after that, I am coasting along until March 31st when it all comes together.

Some parts of this whole planning thing have been tough, but for the most part, it’s been fun and I cannot wait to see it all come together.